It was a disappointment but I still love him...

Well the anniversary prezzie was not quite wat i expected. What I mean is I know its a silver thing but I didn't know it was a prezzie that was kept for 2 years for his Ex and now he gave me. I don't care if the prezzie he gave is not expensive. Anyway I already tell him 2 months ago that we juz buy prezzie below $10 so we can save and see who more creative. Somehow I feel lower than ever about myself compare to his Ex. :(... I was recalled about all the other things he does to me that hurt me so much. Eventhough some of this stuff he know that I'll get hurt if he do such a thing but he still do it. I was so much lower after that 1 year anniversary thing. We have a talk on the phone. I can't stop myself from crying. I was shocked by his reaction. At first he remain quiet and he sound as if he don't care at all. Then I really can't take all the pain so I say maybe we should break up then he started to freak out. I don't wanna lose him but I can't stand the pain anymore. I juz want him to wake up to the real world and appreciate every single thing he have at this point of time.I hope I did help. Nowadays the days seem dull and sad.I don't know why but I'll make my way through with him around. I need his help to heal myself. :(.. Nobody can break us up!!! Try to be strong sayang... Good things will happen if U juz do what is right... U know what I mean rite? I lurve Drew Barrymore... She reminds me of myself actually... Not looks, I know I am nothing compare to her...

So Excited!!!

Tomorrow is gonna be a big day for me. Never have a relationship this long. It is already 1 year that we have been together. It is like a few days ago. I really miss him. I realise that the more we are together there are actually more problems occurring.... Eventhough we fought for alot of times but I think we are much more closer to each other. Can't wait to give him the gift I bought the other day. I wonder what he is giving me. Haiz meeting him later at 5 plus. We fought the other time, I really wanted to be alone for while but then after a few hours I realise that I can't stop thinking about him. Now I am really sure he is the ONE for me. Every single thing that I do revolved around him. Really love him... Sayang I realli love you!!! Really miss you tau!

Insecure

I have a very bad habit. Insecurity is common to me. It is bad but what can I do, I lurve him too much that's why I am scared. I am even in secure about the way I look, what others think about me, my friends talking behind my back and people who look down on me. Been this way since young. I am so glad that Fad can help me through this but sometimes I have to handle it alone He is too busy with school and work. I don't want to disturb him. I really love him... Yesterday was my last day at Pizza Hut. No one really care I am going except for Lilin and Raj. Hmmm maybe it's better if I go anyway. All the ones close to me there have gone. The work at Harvey Norman was great! Gotta know some nice friendly people. Hope I get along better with them...Can't wait for anniversary this friday. I am meeting him today too at Tampines.Miz him too much that's why I need to meet him... Haiz~~ I lurve U so much Fad

My eyes are tired...

I have been sleeping like so early nowadays. around 9 plus I am already asleep...So sleepy...Some times till I can't force open my eyes anymore.This is the stupid contact lens fault...Anyway anyone want to buy cheap contact lens? They are at Bukit Panjang Plaza...Its only 3 pairs for $40...Grab it while U still can.Because of these contact lens I don't get to talk to my boyfriend for 2 days..If I talk also only for like 5 mins...:(...So sad and I really miss him like hell...I message him this morning but he haven't reply me yet.I hope he is okay. If U are reading this please read your blog and we discuss about the outing tomorrow. I wanna go bugis syg...I wanna buy white top for the Harvey Norman job...Haiz...Miss U so much Fadly...I promise I force my eyes for you tonite...Luv U.....

Oops he did it again...

He skip his lecture again. I am scared you know that he might not really focus on his studies. Anyway it is the last semester and I really hope that he'll do better. It is sad to know that whatever I said to him yesterday night about studying hard and remembering what my father said is like totally forgotten today. What if he continue to be this way? Actually I am disappointed by what he did today and sad too. I hope that he will not do this anymore. Can' stop this worries from coming... ;(... I need to think while listening to this....

Where is he?

How come he is quiet the whole day? Did he come to school? Did he manage to read my blog? Where has he gone? I wonder. I hope I hear form him soon. I am in school now to take LSSS. Damn it is boring you know. But at least I can go off earlier. Hehehe... Haiz where is he, he finish early today. Where can he be.....???? ARRRGGGHHHH... My head hurts.... Stupid, old, aircon-less bus 74!!! So SLOWWWW~~~ I feel like puking now....

Sick

He is sick. How???? I am meeting him later after work. I hope his alright. I am starting to sneeze too. I hope I am not going to be sick today. Maybe later. Today not so much things to do but I have like 3 hours incubation now. What to do? Hmm I love Nasi Lemak... When should I eat it?

Blessings in Disguise

I believe I can do whatever I wish I can that is good. Eventhough bad things happen but somehow it turn out for the better. And as time goes by it's more better and better. I hope that I will continue to do good. I really love you Fadly.

Why the SILENT?

Close your ears and try to appreciate the sound of SILENCE. It is good to know that the beauty of silence is not entirely by keeping silent. It doesn't work that way. Keeping silent do not usually entirely solve anything. If you watch some people just keep quiet and do not even bother to ask about the questions and problems that they have in their minds they will tend to be hot tempered at times. I, myself do encounter this problem. It was worst last time but I tried my very best, at least now it's better. I miss Fadly and really want to meet him. ;( Where are you? Meanwhile I'll listen to this...

Miracle

There are a lot of things that happen to a person when without he/she expected. It happens to everyone and anyone. It takes a person to not expect anything to happen and anything good in return to anything that they do. It just happens. Sometimes without even doing anything it may happen to you. Can you go back to all those memories you have stored in your brain and try to recall if it happens to you. You'll realise there is. How simple yet complicate is our life? Its actually in the matter of you and your heart. Who can read your heart? Your boyfriend/girlfriend? Not so. It's God. He knows what is going to happen next, now, then and later. No matter what we did and feel for certain thing, He'll know. Sincerity, honesty, kindness and love are a few of the wonderful feelings of life. We tend to forget this in those hectic days of our lives. I'll smile when I think of this beautiful part of life. \m/ (^_^) \m/

Hell of a NIte

Things do get out of hand sometimes between us. Now it is worst then out of hand. Both of us are at fault. Screaming is not the answer and we shouldn't take it for granted that now my dad have known about us. We now have to be strong and more wiser in handling problems. Be more matured and confident about the future we have planned together. It's time to change a bit for the better for both of us. We need to talk whenever we encounter any difficulties in our relationship. This is my decision. We have to be careful now. Mission will be accomplished! Taufik ROCKZ!!! \m/ Eventhough his not a rocker but well sylvester is an Ah Beng.. Hope the result is worth watching.