In relation to previous post and the job which loves telephone

On saturday morning, 9th July 2005, it was the most amazing day of my life as i pursue the love of my life, realising my every mistakes along the way. The night before was a disaster, somehow part of me say nothing bad will happen but I know I have to do something on that saturday morning, it needs attention and understanding to feel what I feel that day, because I wasn't desperate but I can't let go something that have totally change my life and going to be my future. I guess thats me, I wouldn't give up things easily, I believe that every bad and good things that happen to me, there is a reason. After sending him to work, I met Nazreen and Faz at Causeway Point to talk about the problems and feelings I face, I know my mistakes, I know his mistakes, But I know we are meant for each other. Today I got a job, a temp job with Starhub as a Telesales. Hmm at least I can leave Harvey Norman thats for sure... hehe... Going training later at 6.30pm but then have to leave earlier to sign my contract with Recruit Express. Sigh~ Busy day today. Wish me luck!

Broke Down

Suddenly a disappearance after the test. Before entered, messages were exchanged. A promise was to call when get back home, claim to miss the lurve. Probably sleeping after a long day of study, call to make sure. Heart dampened when mum say not home, it is already 9pm... At 10pm mum say the same things. Heart sank, disappointed, especially in oneself not the other. How does oneself lurve the other so much but not lurved? Break down in tears, so far yet now so much further. Don't know what else to do. Cry. So sad because claim to miss the lurve but out with or no where I know, breaking the promise earlier. I just broke down. Tears flow for the lurve misses the other, not caring for oneself anymore. Oneself should go... But oneself can't live without the other. ;(