Anyone interested in doing a survey?

Pls get it on to this website to get it on to do a survey on me...

While at it you can even do it for yourself, then u tell me the link to do it for you ok?

Here is the link...

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Super%20Siti

Here is what people think of me so far and what I am thinking and what others or me is unaware of...

Arena (known to self and others) caring, friendly, helpful	Blind Spot (known only to others) adaptable, cheerful, independent, intelligent, kind, loving, mature, modest, reflective, religious, sentimental, silly, sympathetic, trustworthy
Façade (known only to self) complex, observant, patient	Unknown (known to nobody) able, accepting, bold, brave, calm, clever, confident, dependable, dignified, energetic, extroverted, giving, happy, idealistic, ingenious, introverted, knowledgeable, logical, nervous, organised, powerful, proud, quiet, relaxed, responsive, searching, self-assertive, self-conscious, sensible, shy, spontaneous, tense, warm, wise, witty

Dominant Traits

60% of people think that Super Siti is kind
60% of people think that Super Siti is religious
80% of people think that Super Siti is sentimental

All Percentages

able (0%) accepting (0%) adaptable (20%) bold (0%) brave (0%) calm (0%) caring (40%) cheerful (40%) clever (0%) complex (0%) confident (0%) dependable (0%) dignified (0%) energetic (0%) extroverted (0%) friendly (40%) giving (0%) happy (0%) helpful (20%) idealistic (0%) independent (20%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (20%) introverted (0%) kind (60%) knowledgeable (0%) logical (0%) loving (40%) mature (20%) modest (20%) nervous (0%) observant (0%) organised (0%) patient (0%) powerful (0%) proud (0%) quiet (0%) reflective (20%) relaxed (0%) religious (60%) responsive (0%) searching (0%) self-assertive (0%) self-conscious (0%) sensible (0%) sentimental (80%) shy (0%) silly (20%) spontaneous (0%) sympathetic (20%) tense (0%) trustworthy (40%) warm (0%) wise (0%) witty (0%)

Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 22.2.2006, using data from 5 respondents.
You can make your own Johari Window, or view Super Siti's full data.

Dreams

Is it true?

How I wish so would happen.... No need to dream because there is nothing to wish or dream about. I have to face this cruel truth and reality that lay before me.

What am I thinking about, it is a thought to be never think about. Live it the way of what is the fullest but then what is empty and what is full? Damn, I am confused.

Whenever we are trying to, we are prevented by certain things that suddenly comes. It is so irritating! So how can I get married like this?? Government jobs, please I need one...

Prevention of the Mellow Attack

Intervention the weak increases heart rate
Pulsing a very inner side of mind
Soul rest in peaceful bed, trembling to sleep as eyes awake
Body forced to harden the shivering spine
Till it cracked and break into small, different pieces
Acceptance rejected by the very own
To whom we come from speaks in sleeps
Answers were questioned as the answered were a question
Manipulating brain as it works ahead in it
Showering under the heat we lay still
Waiting for the very moment that we pounced to earth beneath
Preventing softness affecting races revolving it
A mellow attack produces each day of vain
stop and think, how we endure the rain and faint
For that is why we are here to mellow down the pain.

Communication

When I was young, I love to talk alot and my mum use to call me 'nenek kebayan'. I was a happy girl, who loves to eat, play and laugh. When I am a bit older, around 7 years old, that cheerfulness starts to fade. I like to remain quiet during occasions like Hari Raya or any 'kenduri' with my relatives. I will only be myself when I am with my close cousins. At home I seldom talked to my mum, she was busy, when I was young, I used to think that my parents don't really loves me. Even though I am the youngest, there is no such things as 'anak manja' for me. I don't mind that but sometimes I think my parents loves my sis more than me, and my bro too, till now actually. Sometimes it hurts but then we can't judge their love, can we? So starting of my 7 years old and above, I was really quiet, only am myself with my friends and close cousins.

People use to say that I am stupid because I did a certain project all by myself, which actually I need to do with my friend. My sis use to scold me and say, "Never let anyone put U down! U should tell them off when somebody takes U for granted." I have learnt from that, I have more friends than ever when I was 11 and 12. In my secondary school years, I knew too much hatred and fake people that the wall of trust starts to deplete out of my heart. It is hard to trust, but communication was much better. Eventhough my english was a C5 but then the communication that I have with different type of people have help me to go far. I want to go further.

And I end up in Poly with a part-time job in Pizza Hut. I talk to strangers and key in orders and know more people who talk more things about U that is more bad than good. Challenges filled up my days both in school and work. In school, I just can't communicate with my lecturers because I feel that I am stupid and no way in their kind of world. Except for some who believes in me. Some who go the extra mile to come and ask me straight to my face, " Siti are U ok?". Not to forget the conflicts about friends I have in Poly are overwhelming and over the top. It is not dramatic but silent kind of conflicts. I hate silent, this teaches me how communication is what it is all about.

Weird that I worked in Starhub before, so not me kind of thing. Never know I have the gift of communicating with customers but then I kind of sick of it because of the demand that is too pathetic to mention. Come on lah Singaporeans, can you please don't ask for stupid things!!! Sigh~

So now I am working in HSC, the company producing Kickapoo and other cool drinks that U might never heard of. Well, that is because the company is the first in Singapore to manufacture this drinks, previously we are drinking from Malaysia HSC, now we are going to drink fromSingapore very own HSC drinks. HEhee.. Which is more nicer, because... I am the QC Lab Tech in-charge of improvising the taste and well-being of the drink. Partly is my duty but then, we have to work with the Marketing Dept.

So now I thought that I won't have any problems with communicating in the lab, since probably most of the time I be talking to the Green tea, but I am wrong! Now I have another Lab Tech with me and she is a China PR. This is really is challenging job for me, probably now I will improve my mandarin. HaAha!! One of my closest colleague is planning to leave the company, how am I gonna survived? I have to communicate more I suppose throughout my whole life. Sometimes I am too tired of talking, I just want to shut my mouth, put masking tape all over and lock myself in the lab. I know it is impossible! U know why? My mouth be itching for food.

In the factory I was told to take out my tudung because we have to keep a clean environment. Always have to wear a hairnet whenever going into the production site. I know what U are thinking, tudung is like a hairnet but then, there it's different, tudung can catch alot of bacteria from outside so it will contaminate the drinks. Moreover I am doing Microbe-check on samples so I am using a vacuum pump, which might suck out the living materials on my tudung. So I have no choice. Of course when I go back home, I will put on back lah! My colleagues are so fortunate to see my hair!!

Search Your True Identity

I been listening to people's conversation and how much it has left me thinking about my childhood and my teenage life... They go something like....

"Ishhh... Look at that guy!!! So cute and handsome right???", and another one is,

"Don't you think she is so bitchy, she thinks she is so pretty with her outfit like that. Hahaha....", this person was sitting with her group of friends.

Well they were actually saying it Malay,

"Ishhh... Kau tengok orang belakang kau... Hensem gile!!! Siak ar....", and the other one again in Malay,

"Sial punye perempuan, ingat dia lawa lah tu, baju mcm siak. Hahaha....", these 2 sentences was by the same person.

Some of us say "siak" and "sial" before in our life, eventhough maybe some of us don't but accidentally we still do. Some of us say it for fun and think that it is cool. Some of us however just got stuck with that phase since the early years. Well... I have been in that stage but then I don't really say it every minute and every phrase of my words and I am through it, not like certain people. I think I still mention that word to those I know won't get offended, they are my sister, my close cuzzie, close crazy friends and even to my mum who know that I don't have the intention of scolding, to me its just a word to describe something outrageous. The most I say to mention that word is,

"Siak je! Haha...", I always mention this when anyone I have mention above have said or done something funny or outrageous. The word "sial" is not used by me, maybe last time when I am still young but then it wasn't that long.

What I am trying to point out is actually not all these words but then actually what they were talking about. What is really fun to U when spending time with your friends?

1) Is it to look at guys and get their attention?

2) Is it to criticise others and make them feel ashamed of themselves?

3) Is it laughing at your friend because she is different from you or the group?

4) Is it dumping guys?

5) Is it showing most parts of your body to guys?

6) Is it being able to get all attentions and be snobbish about it?

These questions are lingering in my mind, never been in that situation before, well kind of in the situation but then I feel different.

In situation no. 1, I am just a presence to not be notice and to let guys notice my friends, that makes me happy because I like when my friends are happy. I don't like attention that much, makes me uneasy.

In situation no. 2, I can't deny that I don't criticise people but unless if they are really asking for it. I am just happy to listen to my friends ridiculous comments on others, if it is not true to me, I will just laugh it off.

In situation no. 3, I don't believe in this kind of things because I believe that everybody is different and should be treated with equal respect. I HATE it when somebody in the group will laugh at another from the group just to bring him/her down, but if its a joke, it is ok, with constant assurance of the comment as a joke is better.

In situation no. 4, never ever been in this situation. How does it feel to get it on with a guy and then dump him? You better watch your butt if you do this to others... I don't have the heart and the time. I am fair to both guys and gals.

In situation no. 5, another never been there kind of situation. I choose not to show, does that mean that I am not cool? I am covered, I am not cool? If your answer is "not cool", get a reality check because that means you are narrow minded.

In situation no. 6, all of us or is it most of us be in this situation when suddenly your friend ignores you when a group of guys walk next to your friends and you. And when these guys realling focusing their attention on your friend, she suddenly become snobbish towards you because she is trying to keep her cool? Hmmm... Is it wrong to just act normally with us in front of those guys? It leaves me thinking, do I/Us make my/our friend less cool in front of those guys? Weird.

So what is really fun for you?

For me the time spend with friends are fun because we do stupid things with ourselves and not because of some guy or gal we don't barely know, laughing at each other is fun but then we need to think about how they feel too, be a bit careful. It is better to laugh with one another, to me.

I really don't know what I am crapping but you can leave your views.