You leave me speechless, Fadly.

There is one BIG greatest fear I have in my life which is to Allah. All the things I have in my life are a blessings from Him. I am happy for the love He gave through loving Fadly, for that I am afraid of losing him. Every mistake that I may have done including the past and presence worries me, my prayers are for Him to save me by.

It's hard to live in this world of beauties, but then each day he look into my eyes, I go speechless, speechless for the beauty only he can see in me. I am shy to look into his eyes for I feel, I don't think I am worthy of being loved. Although I am sastified and happy as the way I am, but I know there are people in my life who tend to differ me by my appearance. I can't deny or run away from these people, they are a part of me. All I can do is just pray for them to realise I am a creation of Allah and as special as everyone in my own way.

I hate being a substitute in life, as a replacement, as only a person to release anger etc. For once in my life, I feel someone really loves me for the way I am, think that I am special and never would want to let me go. And I hope that never ends, Fad. I'll pray we meet again in the next life...

To Fadly:

Happy 3 years Anniversary on the 24th of Dec 11:20pm, in advance. I hope this engagement will keep us stronger together. You make me speechless, when you look at me because everytime you do, I was praying to Allah, that it will never change. You are my childhood dream...