I have realised...

Is it me or is it just me?

Is there something wrong with me?

I should have realised it from the beginning... the day I stepped into school and treat U as my friend, because U come as U wish and go as U may.

Why does it have to be me?

Why that everything I do don't seem to be appreciated by U, in the end?

The more I know, the further I go, the more invisible I be.

At the most precious moments of my life U are not there emotionally... How can U call yourself a friend to me?

Even I am afraid to approached U now, because I want to see how far U go without me, by doing that I know whether I was really a friend to U. Whether I was really there when it all happened and was regarded as a friend.

Blame me to isolate myself but that is what U make me do, an outcast. Different away from the society. I can't blame the boredom I have in me for U to not see me, because U have your own perception of the word friend.

U know what use I have when it comes to your dilemmas in life and troubles, U know I am there because I am revolving this world around friends. U know that I can get back on my feet and walk again and never regret, so U use me.

How hard is it to treat me like other normal friend or other terms U used to use on me like special friend, sister, bestfriend, close friend, a friend U can rely on... etc.

On this journey I search high and low for that friend that knows me as me, be my friend not only when im physically there but in our hearts we are forever friends, be my friend for who I am, be there for me in good and bad times(not all the time), care and remembers that I exists in this world.

I hope U are a friend...

P.S. I don't know what the hell I am writing but it just comes when it comes... (-_-)