Broke Down

Suddenly a disappearance after the test. Before entered, messages were exchanged. A promise was to call when get back home, claim to miss the lurve. Probably sleeping after a long day of study, call to make sure. Heart dampened when mum say not home, it is already 9pm... At 10pm mum say the same things. Heart sank, disappointed, especially in oneself not the other. How does oneself lurve the other so much but not lurved? Break down in tears, so far yet now so much further. Don't know what else to do. Cry. So sad because claim to miss the lurve but out with or no where I know, breaking the promise earlier. I just broke down. Tears flow for the lurve misses the other, not caring for oneself anymore. Oneself should go... But oneself can't live without the other. ;(