Work it out!

Life have not change much... work... work... work... bleurgh!! Seriously I forgive all those who probably done bad to me, I just couldn't be bothered about it anymore... I think I am immune to it... Recently I when to Hang Ten and saw sesame street shirts, so I ask whats the biggest size male shirt they have to an auntie working there... She said, " Aiyo... Your size cannot fit lor.." and Jiahui look so piss. I was laughing lah! If I was a mystery shopper, fail her for her customer service, seriously I didn't even mention it is for me la dey! but i forgive U auntie, I have too much love to fit into a sesame street shirt... HAhaha!! My main intention of Zumba-ing is to keep fit, maybe lose some perhaps... With the pace I am going... maybe need 10 years... ZUMBA rox by the way! I think not only its losing the carbs but also stimulating the inner strength or confidence... Anyway, Zumba is a mix of latin, salsa, cha cha, belly dancing, hip hop, reggaeton etc. Try it... U love it!

Drained

I am so drained. As we keep working, we lose bits of ourselves along the way. When will I revive from this meltdown...

Holiday, i need a holiday!!!

A reason, a season or a lifetime?

At this point of time in my life, I wonder who are those friends that comes as a reason or those come in a season or that stay forever in my lifetime. I am going to be in another phase of life in another 7 months time. Wonder who are those that are sincerely happy for me and Fadly. Sometimes it hurts when somebody will ask, "How you and Fadly?" and give a pathetic face like as though waiting for us to end. Sometimes I just get away to withdraw myself from the pain they put on me. Like what my sis say, "What for you continue to be friends with people who don't care for you and just hurt you, its like making yourself miserable".

Now that our wedding is near, I can break up the memories of my life according to different phase of life. I am more clear of whatever that has happened for the past 23 years of my life, probably it gets even clearer as I grow older. I realised certain things happened for something else to come. I regret about certain things but I am grateful that I regret and learn so I am here writing this. If Allah wants me to realise these reason, season and lifetime friends and so He put me in this confusion situation, I am very grateful.

Here is a great quote I found for woman who just fall out of love.

IF HE IS STUPID ENOUGH TO WALK AWAY, BE SMART ENOUGH TO LET HIM GO...

Friendship

There are 3 kind of friendship, they come either for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Photos long forgotten to upload...Here it is!

Meet up with Umah and had a wonderful time at Swensens quite some time back. We ate dessert, which was left to nothing.



After we went to watch Step Up 2 the streets... They really should renovate the ceiling before it collapse to my head, and the seats are too high for me to see, dammit!



This is the warm chocolate cake Fad and I ate in Plaza Singapura before we watched 'Jumper' for free, thanks to my sister for getting the tickets. Its like a birthday treat for both of us. The whole theatre was filled with SMU staffs, I feel so small.



These are the photos taken on the eve of my birthday, which was also the day Mas Selamat escaped from prison, so su-ay! Thank you to my aunties, uncle, cuzzies, future mum and dad in laws and my dearie Fadly for coming... I took like 2 days off for this birthday bash at Aloha Loyang, it was worth to take 2 days off eventhough some stuffs screwed up at work without me around. Thank you sis and sis-in-law for the wonderful cakes you guys bought, only managed to get the brownies, cupcakes was gone and I have already cut the cake. Here are the photos...





Thanks mum for getting ready all the food for us to eat...









My dad and Iqbal, the new addition to my family going for swimming. Hehe



Here we are at Honda showroom. Honda has always been my dad's favourite so it is not shocking that he will do anything for it.



Dad, you took my dream car.



Yesterday went to M.A.C for Diyana makeover/birthday treat. Didn't took any photos, my hands was trembling, so cold there and my fever was running high. The makeover was abit glamorous for normal occassions, but it was ok. After that she got $120 to shop in M.A.C and get whatever she wants. We ate at Breeks, my throat was so sore that I didn't have the appetite to finished up my Barbecued Chicken with Cheese sandwich, so not me! Breeks has always been a food haven for me and Umah. I need to rush back to Woodlands where my parents were waiting for me. So sorry if I spoil your birthday treat, Diyana, but seriously you guys do not need to send me to the mrt station and just carry on chatting while eating. I feel so guilty by then. We bid goodbye at MRT station. They are off for karaoke session while I went off to Woodlands. My head was piping hot by the time I got to Marina Bay, I really felt like fainting. I was late so I told my parents to go without me. The whole night I was in bed with a high fever, i ate apple at 2am and another dose of fever, flu and cough medicine. After all that, I think it was worth all the pain and effort.

Personality Test

Got this personality test from Feza's blog, I think it really gives perfect personality review on us.

You are an EXPLORER / builder
You have a great deal of vitality. You are curious, imaginative and resilient. And you find pleasure in doing and thinking about all sorts of things and ideas, often at the same time. You tend to be optimistic, seeing the world as a place of adventure. You seek first-hand experiences. And when you embark on a project or expedition, you like to be organized, thorough and responsible. You are firmly grounded in reality and live in the here and now. You stand up for your beliefs. And you have a sympathetic and spiritual side that adds warmth and depth to your being. In spite of your search for novelty, you have a genuine respect for home, family, work and community. You are conscientious and dependable. Yet you occasionally surprise those whom you love with generous presents. You generally enjoy life. You have a keen sense of humor. And because you are broad-minded, flexible and playful, you can be a wonderful friend.

LOVE DON'T WALK AWAY, PEOPLE DO.

Focus on the heading of this post carefully. There are different meanings and situations to use for this phrase. Example:

1) When a guy/gal thinks he/she is not in love with their partner anymore, they decided to end the relationship and so they walk away. But they do not realise that it is their decision but not his/her love for the partner, thus, love don't know how to walk away, people do. Resulting in these people to regret.

2) A guy/gal give excuses that they cannot go on with the relationship with you instead of enduring all the way to keep the love strong, most probably meant that he/she don't even love you in the first place. So they walk away, there is no love here because love don't walk away.

3) You have a decision to make. You only have 2 choices. One of it is to study abroad leaving your family and friends, while the other is to stay in Singapore and stuck with the qualification you have. If it is the first choice, it is not wrong. In this situation, you are walking away from the people you love for only a moment, but your love will stay with them, it won't walk away with you.

4) One day, your partner made a mistake and feels low about himself/herself, your partner thinks that he/she is not the right one for you. He/She believes that you deserve a better person so he/she told you that there is no future for both of you. You cried and walk away, but then even if you do, your love in his/her heart never walk away. That is why your partner still holds on to you, because love don't walk away.

This phrase probably applies to many people in the world. And maybe, there are a diversity of meanings to it for them... One thing I am sure of, all of us have felt this feeling before.

For those who are confuse to what they are feeling for their partners...

There are alot of things in life that trigger us to do things that we regret or do not wish to do to our love ones. Some people say it is probably the right thing and some people blame it on FATE. I wish to take this opportunity to say, U guys are crap! Do not blame it on fate or reality or even God.

It takes YOU to make the decision to go through the pain, love and sufferings with your love ones in the end. God is just twisting your love/life story to see what you will decide or do for the LOVE to lasts, if what you have decide to do follow his path, InsyaAllah with alot of patience things will work out well BUT if you decide to end it or "over-indulge in life", then do not blame FATE or God, it is your choice!

What is the meaning of "over-indulge in life"? It means you keep giving yourself time to waste on unnecessary things here that you have forgotten your main purpose in life here on earth. You do not spare much thought for your love ones and only think by only your own perspective. Because you want to enjoy your so called "life", you let go or "switch off" certain important things/people in your life. You talk about unnecessary things that produce empty messages to your love ones and worse, some words just hurt them, but still YOU are blinded by wanting to live in your so called "life". You only focus is to get the best out of your "life".

People say make the best of your life, but that doesn't mean you should only think of yourself in the picture, the best doesn't mean it is for you, but it is for your life... You don't own the body you have now, He do. You can't expect to run away from problems just by laughing it off with some friends, you have to face it and try to change the situation. Think about what is your priority in life, if you say it is money, think again! Money is just an important asset, when you die it means nothing to you.

In every religion they believe in karma, so whatever bad things you might have done, watch out! Bad doesn't have to mean that you have to steal or kill someone, the most simplest bad is, not realising how important the one who loves you are and disregard them. This is a fair world, there are equal sufferings and love to go around but it is up to US to choose what to do that produces these outcomes.

I think by now some people might have questions to what does the heading got to do with what I am saying. When you "over-indulge" in life and trying to get the best out of your "life", you are confuse with the feelings for your gf or bf or even family and friends, you think that you no longer need them and that you are happy to get what YOU want. This is when God will decide what FATE that shall come upon you for that decision...

I hope these words make YOU understand...