Nervous Opportunity

This Saturday is going to be a countdown for me. Wonder what my dad will think of him. Hope things go smoothly. I want to get away from them who make use of me, take me for granted. Sometimes I would cry inside thinking how could they do such a thing to me. It's like they come and go as they please as though its a clear sin. I leave them to think for themselves, I can't be bothered anymore. Am I information counter for the troubled heart and soul? I guess so. But it's okay and I wish all the best for them. BUT I am hurt. Disappointed is the right word. I done my best to be a friend that cares and be there as much as I can but it still no use. My mum even say I am stupid for being too nice eventhough they are so bad to me. But what am i to do, this is my principles of life. It is better to care and love rather than hurting other people just because others are doing so, it's just going round and round. Someone have to make a difference. I hope I am. While I am happy to be there I am also sad and disappointed, suffering. BUT I have faith and that I have to remind myself. I just have to be patience. But how much is patience to be patience? As long as i don't end up being a patient in hospital that okay. Without suffering there would be no compassion. I'll carry on to do the right thing. This is what I believe.